.Tuesday, April 21, 2009 @ 10:33 PM Y
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Back to school, I am already feeling the pressure and stress.
LOVE it but HATE it at e same time.
Being pressurized and stressed up have always motivated me to go further. But when it gets too much to handle, I just felt like breaking down.
I am feeling quite lethargic to move on.
Todae was like the worst day for me. It was my elective module, d & p, I expected so much from it but things just dun go the way u wanted it to be. In that class,
I felt so dumb. I felt like a fool. It’s more to DTA, and i noe nuts abt it and they were all very outspoken. As usual, I muted myself. If this goes on, I am pretty sure I wun score well. I wanted to drop it like seriously, I dun wanna waste my time but I dun wish to give up, its jus not me and my mum.. She has always been very supportive of my decision but tis time she is like so against it. I dun understand why.
Aft the lesson, I just felt emotionally unstable, left immediately. “Enjoying” bus rides. It was crazy of me. I took 161 to hougang back to woodlands and back to hougang. Next, I went to find food to gorge on. 3large whipped potato + 1 tub of chocolate ice-cream + 2 bubble tea. Amazingly, I manage to finish everyting. There goes my dieting.. I just felt like venting it out. It seems so silly. NO, it is silly. It doesn’t work at all.
I just realized how vulnerable I could be.
Its indeed not easy going thru tis alone.TAKE ME AWAY!!!