SaKiNaH's LiFe StOrY..

2009-08-10T02:46:00.001+08:00

Officially moved to
http://suchbeautifulmemories.tumblr.com/

2009-07-05T01:46:00.005+08:00

I gave myself false hope. I knew it would never happen but I did not control myself.
Now, I’ve made up my mind. It was a fantasy. No point clinging on to it.
I will learn to let go~~

Well, that aside. I have been in a camwhore mood. LOL!!
Some recent pics..

thats all for nw~
gd nite!

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2009-06-20T21:46:00.003+08:00

Can I smile just like before?
Can I laugh just like before?
Can I act as if nothing had happen?
Can I still put up a strong front?

I want to. I really want to, but can I?
I wonder…
I am just gonna try.
*I won’t allow myself to sink deeper.

LOVES – Sakinah

2009-05-21T23:59:00.002+08:00

Don’t you think u r being freaking childish?!
Honestly, I can’t be bothered with you anymore.
You haf no idea wat i am going thru.
I am freaking disappointed in you. I expected more than childish acts frm u.
You can F***ing AVOID me.
You can F***ing treat me like INVISIBLE.
I DUN CARE!! I CAN BE BOTHERED!!

My life still goes on with or without you.
If u r not happy, you can just SCRAM!!
I am sorry but i can’t please everyone.

2009-05-16T00:50:00.003+08:00

I have my own reasons for doing every single thing.
But it doesn’t mean I like whatever I am doing.
I am left with no choice. I had to prioritize. I have to make a choice.

I wanted to tell u but I am not sure if u are ready to hear it.
You haf freaking no idea wat i am going thru rite now!
What i need now is for you to understand me and not to...

She’s back!! She is really back!! She is back for good!!
You are nothing but trouble, misery and pain to me!!
Yes, she is your ******** but to me, SHE’S A NIGHTMARE!
MY NIGHTMARE IS BACK TO HAUNT ME!
I knew this would come, but it comes way too soon.
I am not ready for it yet…
I am not sure if I can accept u…
…
F#$%#!

Sakinah - way too soon =(

2009-04-21T22:33:00.002+08:00

Back to school, I am already feeling the pressure and stress.
LOVE it but HATE it at e same time.
Being pressurized and stressed up have always motivated me to go further. But when it gets too much to handle, I just felt like breaking down.
I am feeling quite lethargic to move on.

Todae was like the worst day for me. It was my elective module, d & p, I expected so much from it but things just dun go the way u wanted it to be. In that class, I felt so dumb. I felt like a fool. It’s more to DTA, and i noe nuts abt it and they were all very outspoken. As usual, I muted myself. If this goes on, I am pretty sure I wun score well. I wanted to drop it like seriously, I dun wanna waste my time but I dun wish to give up, its jus not me and my mum.. She has always been very supportive of my decision but tis time she is like so against it. I dun understand why.

Aft the lesson, I just felt emotionally unstable, left immediately. “Enjoying” bus rides. It was crazy of me. I took 161 to hougang back to woodlands and back to hougang. Next, I went to find food to gorge on. 3large whipped potato + 1 tub of chocolate ice-cream + 2 bubble tea. Amazingly, I manage to finish everyting. There goes my dieting.. I just felt like venting it out. It seems so silly. NO, it is silly. It doesn’t work at all.

I just realized how vulnerable I could be.
Its indeed not easy going thru tis alone.
TAKE ME AWAY!!!

2009-04-07T23:29:00.005+08:00

Why do I always be the one getting hurt?
Why do I keep pinning hopes on the wrong person?
I’ve been trying to run away, but it doesn’t seem to work.
I just couldn’t deceive myself.
DUMB, CHILDISH AND NAIVE. That’s me

Is it impossible to have a life without worries and troubles?
I wonder….

Memories are still e best,
okay, maybe Sometimes

ok, time for some outdated pics Cambodia and BTG

okay thats all for now..

having fyp meeting tml, meeting my advisor.

I am freaking nervous and i am nt sure why. LOL!

2009-02-15T21:27:00.002+08:00

well, back to blog..
created a livejournal account. will use it aft i able to figure it out hahax!

Life definitely has its ups and downs.
I am trying super hard to face it positively!!=D

1. I passed my BTT on my 1st attempt!! (yayness!! ) =D
2. FINALLY, sort thing things out wif xxxxxx (relieved) =D
3. Happy for Lionel & Bifang (glad) <3
4. He is no longer alone (sad/disapointed) =(
5. Made e 1st move (???) =.=
6. BBQ was a success =D

I will be leaving for Cambodia real soon~~ (17feb-2mar)
so i've been abit busy wif it..
We have been meeting up almost everyday last week =.=
Super tiring. i got eye bags alreadi!! damn!!!

i am looking forward to it at e same time i am scared.
what will e environment be like? toilets?
what about e food? i dun wan to starve but okaylar, can diet.. LOL!!
BUT I TRUST MYSELF!! I AM SURE I WILL BE ABLE TO ADAPT!!! hahax
Really hope everyting will go well =D

sometimes, i rather not know
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2009-02-01T22:33:00.006+08:00

Why must i always wear different mask wherever i go?

I am so sick and tired of my life.

Who can help me tear away these mask of mine that are lingering in my skin??
i need u..

I AM SO LOVING my HOLS!!!!

i have been going out almost everyday.. hehe.

LOVE it, LOVE it, LOVE it!!

Some random pics..

Gg to TTSH tml for our vaccination.
i cant wait to fly!!!!!

when will it be my turn??
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2009-01-26T21:38:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!!! she is such a freaking BITCH!!!!!
for the very 1st time i am freaking pissed wif someone!!!!!
So wat if i am fat???!!!!! it doesnt bloody concern u!!!!!
She is ruining my self esteem!!! DAMN it!!!
She better nt appear infront of me again!!! ****!!!!

Moodless!!! hope cambodia trip will make me lose weight..
btw, pics uploaded in facebook~~~

btw, still owe jan the scan stuff.. hes gg to kill me. hahax

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2009-01-17T00:21:00.003+08:00

Ubin getaway!!! i guess i just need some peace for everything.
Hope everything goes well =D

Thanks MUMMY!!! Love u lots <3
i am the most fortunate person in the world!!

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2009-01-12T22:48:00.004+08:00

Sch has been freaking exhausting.

I feel so tired. Hw i wish i could leave everything behind and just fly off. hahax!

There is no motivation at all. but lucky for me i have a group of frens that nvr fails to make me smile =D

EOF, AOS and PP are all 3 weeks project thingy. Cant skip sch for the last week. I will feel guilty towards my teammates lor. haiz. So troublesome sia.

I guess its a way to force people to come sch, people like me. hahax.

Ubin trip this weekend. A getaway for me but not really looking forward to it. u noe why. hahax!!

okay, last but nt least some random pic taken on anthro lesson, =)

okays. thats abt it. will update more nxt time.
*theres more to life than just all that
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2009-01-06T23:07:00.003+08:00

It has been like a month since i last blog. Reason being is that my lappy is down. Sadded =(

oh well, wad happen during the hols was chalets, more chalets, bbq, cyclings, shopping, movie marathon (I LOVE TWILIGHT!!) and falling sick. My immunity system damn low sia, due to that din make it for keryn bdae bbq as well as SKRC bbq. sorry peeps. i guess i really need to eat more vitamins and now i am still coughing my lungs out.

Oh yar, i also went to register for driving lesson, gg to take my BTT on the 5th Feb. Hope i could pass it on my 1st attempt. i cant wait to drive a car. i cant wait to own a car. hahax =D

Another thing is that i might be gg Cambodia on the 17feb - 2mar for a service-learning trip.
And yes, CAMBODIA! 2 weeks!! goodness!! i'm not sure if i can survive. LOL!!

i am gonna stop here for now.
*thanks all for the wishes n pressie, will upload e pics when i get my lappy back

a new beginning
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-12-10T23:07:00.003+08:00

Todae was the first moodless AOS lesson..
Only 9 pple in class.. the atmosphere kindda dead.

but well i survive thru..

we did something simple.. just some sketch storyboard thingy..

i guess in e end, we kindda like e end product =D

Oh yar, mush treat us pizza!!!! it was so nice of her..
took some pics..

oh well.. this sem aint tt bad huh..?

this few days, i am being emotional but well i need jokes, i need life! hahax
and kudos to idiotic joel, u make my day todae * i wan slap u!* =)

can u make me smile? just like before?
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-12-10T12:50:00.004+08:00

Still feeling abit down.. =(

Wad yk says its true, i just gotta face it.

And i am still trying~~

Well, wad happen the past few days is hari raya haji as well as another sweet escape but this time it wasnt tt "sweet". We wasnt in the mood i guess.

We first had our breakfast at mac den catch a movie Wild child. Nice show, it nearly made me cry =). Aft tt, syahirah join us, we went marina barrage, i guess this place would be better if the whole place is done up.
At Raffles city, we come across this booths, selling lots of stuff and the price was reasonable. Got myself a sketchbook and a cute little sweet wif mirror. LOL!!

I wan to watch movie!
I wan eat BUFFET!!
I wan another Sweet escape!
I wan gift!
I wan to destress!!
Anyone??? LOL!!

can u make me smile? just like before?
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-12-07T23:52:00.004+08:00

Things haven been going well for me
Problems, troubles & worries are killing me.
Arrggghhhhh!!!!!
But still, here I am,
Putting up a strong front, a pretense.
I wonder why.
I wonder how long more I could keep on with it.
THIS IS FREAKING TIRING!!!! Damn it!!

Sadness flies away on the wings of time??? I wonder..

*can u make me smile? just like before?*
LOVES – Sakinah =(

2008-11-27T00:27:00.002+08:00

I registered for internship program with Shortman Films for December hols~~
I really hope i would get shortlisted.
PLS! PLS! PLS! *cross fingers*
I noe the chances is like so slim, and .. haiz..
I am just HOPING FOR THE BEST! =D
May god bless me~~

Btw, SHitty day todae =(
**Thanx sharon for trying to cheer me up =D**

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-11-25T11:59:00.005+08:00

Back to blogging...

Was sick for the past few daes. i was suffering lar.
The vomitting and sneeezzziiiinng nearly killed me.
I even skip UT on fri. i was too sick to stay on. but luckily the 1st 2 ut, i did quite okay.
I went to the doc wif lionel. And guess wad, doc ask me to go up the weighing machine.
i was like WTH!!!! for wad sia!!! but still..
I was so shy, lionel was there and he noes my weight now. sadded. LOL!!!
Positive side to it, the vomitting and stuff made me lose 3KG!!! yay!! hahax.

On sat, i went out wif yk to go expo, dunno go some cosmestic sales but we went out empty handed. we were there lesser that 20 mins lar. So waste of time. Aft tt, we went Bugis to shop. Funny thing was, we both like the same thing, we have e same tatste. hahax!
I LOVE SHOPPING!!! we shall go again hehe =D

Today aft Ut, went to starbucks to chill out wif sharon. great time dere~

Some random pics~~

What is LOVE?
this is what my classmate say, love is like a lollipop.
noe why? a penny for ur thoughts
Ironically, i kindda agree wif him. LOLs

*i am so tired of everything
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-11-19T00:02:00.002+08:00

There's a time for everything...
It's hard but i've to learnt to let go.
Families may abandon their loved ones.
Friends leave us.
People come and go.
Everyone gets estrange from one another at some point in time.
I'm sad. i feel like crying but i've to let go, accept changes, grow up...
Lets think positively =D

**Its feels great to get gift when u r in bad mood, so thanks a million to Lionel for e "rose". hahax!

Shall update more nxt time~

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-11-17T21:57:00.005+08:00

TIRING!! DISAPPOINTED!! PISSED!! ANNOYED!!
W had put in our utmost effort, broke away from our comfort zone, breaking away from the boundaries, did e best we could.
But guess wad,
This is wad we got in return,
Criticism, MORE CRITICISM, discouraging words and hypocrisy.
I am starting to hate tis module. Arggghhhhh!!!

But still, surprisingly I had fun working wif my team members; Yusra, Zyla, Eizah, Kaiyun and Aznee. =D
Some random pics on the process =)

I felt that there is no motivation for me to go sch =(
i guess i just got to hang in dere~~

*i wan another sweet escape. LOL!
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-11-16T20:43:00.005+08:00

Sunday. 16/11/2008. 8.46pm.

THIS DAY! THIS DATE! THIS TIME!

I am gonna stop fantasizing! Its was unrealistic anyway.

It was so obvious! i get it.

I finally letting u go for sure.

Indeed i was sad, but for sure, no tears come rolling down.

I am not sure if its a strong front but i am so tired.

I am giving up. I am determined to do so.

This time its not just words,
my actions will prove it!!!

I dun feel like saying much nw.

Some pics taken on Fri , with Yk and Nana =D

*accepting e fact*
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-11-13T21:45:00.004+08:00

Blogging time...

Monday, Production Practicum module. I think on that day i annoyed everyone in the team. Very apologetic about that. Its super difficult to change the habit of mine, "the kancong spider". Hahax. Overall, i felt good about my team's end product.

Heard from samuel fren tt faci like our work best. YIPPPEEE!!!

Anthro n EOF was okay this week. Quite slacking.
Outing wif yk and nana tml. yeah yeah!! very long nvr hang out wif dem ler.

Some random pics. I AM FAMOUS!!! LOL!!
Credits to http://www.photofunia.com/

Thats abt it. Will update more nxt time.

*Contented*
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-11-10T22:02:00.006+08:00

Time to update..

Over the past few days, i realised something..

Why brood over unhappiness?? i mean, we should just just look at the positive side..

I rather smile than frown.. i am tired of emo-ing..
okay wateva~~~~ this aside.

okay back to hols..

Like what i mention, i had hell lots of fun. i went out almost everyday. hahax

FRIENDS ARE LOVES!!!! <3
SHOPPING, MORE SHOPPINGS, MOVIE, ARCADE, BOWLING, BEACH, FISH SPA (scarrrrrrrryyyyyy) and most importantly PPPP is oVER!!!!! yeah!!
okay some random pics~ this was taken after PPPP, celebration time~~ hahax

FISH SPA.. was really scary. But aft awhile it was okay just ticklish..

i haf lots more things to update..
nxt time ba.. feeling so tired now.
tml anthro.. super sian!!! haiz haiz

*stop before it gets too much for u to handle
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-11-05T11:45:00.002+08:00

Lots of things happen during the hols.
i enjoyed myself.

but as for now, i feeling abit depressed.
will update real soon~~

deluding.misleading.deceiving.
LOVES - Sakinah

2008-10-26T22:46:00.004+08:00

okay some updates on last week.. its gonna be long. so bear wif me.

we'll start from tues - Anthro bluek!! =(

Went to catch HOUSEBUNNY wif Sharon...

I find the show pretty ok but nt realli fantastic.

Sadded part, i lost my bracelet in e cinema.

A bracelet that means so much to me. its e only thing i left with that is frm him.

But like wat eva say, its a sign. A sign for me to move on..

haiz.. i guess so.

What meants to be urs will be urs =D

Wed - Art of story average =

Ended lesson SUPER early.. ard 3.15pm?

Hang out at CWP wif Sharon n KaiYun.

den went for ice-cream at GELARE.. YUMMY!!

head home aft tt.

Thurs - EOF errrr =(

Boring yet relaxing. Just record sounds.

Lunch n dinner wif YK and Nana.

They pon to edit PP poster but i cant, gt ut.

they waited patiently for me and dinnered tgt at pizza hut.

Lots off laughter n jokes.

Fri - Charac design. basicallyi din do much due to my mind being occupied abt poster.
And i finally printed it. I AM DONE WIF MY POSTER!! YEAH!!
i felt so great aft tt. the burden is finally gone =)
BUT BUT, they are problems wif my poster. the stupid downloaded fonts, font size and e pixelated backgrd. Haiz! sad but yet happy. so irony.
nt gonna do anything abt it anymore. tired zzz zzz zzz.
oh yar, aft tt went to catch Tropic Thunder wif yk.
Find the show quite nice other than the vulgarities that are pretty humourous. LOL!

SAT - LK bdae, HAPPY BDAE!! =D

Weekend - family stuff =D =D
Cousin gt married. nothing much. but lots of fun.
PICTURES!!

WOW!! its a really long post! i shall stop here.
More updates nxt time~

I wan u by my side
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-10-19T16:11:00.008+08:00

Things goes as usual.

On wed, i was my art of story module. it was e day i step of my comfort zone.
We had to do a picture storyboard.. noe wad? i volunteered to be the main character. i always avoided it, i always push that role to other pple.

i dunno y i even voulunteered on tt dae.
i guess i wanted to do more or mayb i wanted to get involved.

here r some pics that is included in e storyboard =)

Wed lesson is one of the module i enjoy most. i guess its because the class is made up of only 13 pple, the faci is nice and the most impt thing is i noe hw to do the problem. LOL!

Thurs, pon lesson yet again. Met up wif nana n fara to do PP poster. i am seriously struggling wif it. i wanted to do in A1 in photoshop but it was so difficult to handle that i scraped the idea of and did it in ppt in A3 size instead. i am still 4 slides away. long way to go. deadline approaching. PANICKED!!
At ard 2 plus, we left e lib and i follow nana to bugis. Amazingly this time i wasnt in e mood to shop. it was so not me..

Fri, Character design, the day that force me to step of my comfort zone.
This time i had to act LIVE infront of the whole class as a CHINESE desperate housewife.
it was so funny, i even forget my lines but i guess i still smoke thru it. hehe =D

SCH aside. its fun time nw. LOL!!
On fri aft sch, instead of gg for e haloween party, me, fara n keryn dine in at Seoul garden for dinner. A dinner that is full of laughter and more laughters.
We attracted so many unwanted attention.
I had a hell lots of fun wif them. we shall haf more of it often. haha!

oh yar, before leaving for home, we went to get something similar.
We first bought a similar ring and den a matching keychain.
Obviously the purple is MINE!! PURPLE is LOVEs!! hahahahha!

well, tts abt it.
More updates nxt tyme. ToodddddLLLLeeeeeSSSS~~

*when can i meet u?*
LOVES -Sakinah =D

2008-10-10T00:31:00.002+08:00

Ben-jerry ice cream was gd~
My 1st M-18 movie, "The guard post", was crappy~
Pouring out woes session made me feel better ~
Dinner was filling~
I guess i can finally haf a gd slp~
Thanks fren~

MOVING ON
MOVING ON

MOVING ON
MOVING ON

MOVING ON
MOVING ON

MOVING ON
MOVING ON

MOVING ON
MOVING ON

maybe its the right time now~~~~

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-10-08T21:20:00.006+08:00

Fasting month is over and finally its HARI RAYA!!!!

I jus love hari raya wif all the goodies and green packets!! LOL!!
However the first day of raya, my clothes totally spoil my mood. It was super loose, i had to pin up at the back. wat the heck sia! but i guess it means i lose weight. hahahahahhahahaha!!
Maybe i should fast often den i can become as skinny as skeleton. LOL!!

Some pics on the 1st day of hari raya... We are in BLUEEESSSS!! =)

After e first day of hariraya, i had to get back to sch.. haiz haiz haiz =(
I HATE SCH, I HATE SCH, I HATE SCH, I HATE SCH, I HATE SCH!!!
Like what i mention in my previous post, i think i need help, i need advise, i need counselling.
I just felt that i have changed. I am no longer the same person last time.
I need to find my identity back.. i wan to be e old me once again. i really wonder what constitute to this drastic change of me. haiz =(

something random, my classmate, YAN, he doodle this sketch of me. =D

oh well, i tink i need a break frm everything. i need a movie!!

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-09-27T00:25:00.004+08:00

Sch yucks!

I dunno why, but i am hating sch so much!!! i noe i kind of contradict mysel

I remember saying that i am begining to love my course but.... haiz.

The lessons are getting difficult.. i haf problems with it.

And UT was freaking screwed up oso!! ARGHHHH!! T-T

It has been only like 4 weeks of sch but i seems to haf skip alot alreadi..

Is it the classmates? faci? difficult problem? influence? losing interest?

i guess the fault lies in me...

I dunno why, but when i am stress, i just LOVE spending money!! it feels great. haha!

i haf been shopping alot recently..

Pon Anthro - shopping wif sharon at bugis ($90++)

Pon Produc Prac - shopping wif nana n yk at tis fashion + movie ($50++)

Pon Art of story - go ice skating wif lobster and shop with besties ($70++)

BUT i still feel ike i wanna shop somemore..

i can't resist shopping esp when e stuff are super cheap yet nice. LOL!! =D

Anyone wanna join for shopping spree~? hahahhaha!

PIcs with lobster when we go ice skating~~ I WANNA GO AGAIN!!

Hari Raya coming! Hurray!! Lots of foodies and green packet to come..
i so gooonnnna put on the wight that i loss.. hahahaha!

More update nex time~~
Tooodllleeesss!

Full of envy; let nature takes it course ba =D
LOVE - Sakinah =D

2008-09-13T00:21:00.007+08:00

It been long since i update, haf been quite busy esp wif my 2000 WORD REPORT

but thank goodness, its approved, gotta werk on my poster nw =D

I am kindda EMO tis few daes..

I just felt that i sacrifice alot but i was no being appreciated.

There's time whereby i felt tt i am being make used!!
it sucks to be be used, stop using me!! i wun be dumb animore!!

NEW SEM, NEW CLASS, NEW FACI, NEW CLASSMATES!!

things haf been pretty well. i jus need more time to adapt =)

My modules are getting more & more dificult but my interest in it started to develop.

Show u guys some stuff i did in sch..

I AM BEGINNING TO LOVE MY COURSE!!!! hahahah <3

some random old pics~~

Still haf lots of pics.. i update it nxt time..
i need to haf an early nite. werking tml =(
TooOOOoooDDdddLLllLLEEeeeSSS

LOVES - Sakinah

2008-08-25T23:29:00.005+08:00

BIG NEWS!!! GREAT NEWS!! For me and ma family..
Sis in-law had safely gave birth to a cute little baby boy on the 20/08/08..
We named him Muhammad Hazim Bin Muhammed Firdaus.
I am a young aunt nw. hehe =D
Some pics on my cutie nephew..
Holidays have been fun and enjoyable.
On the 21st, went out wif besties, linz and lionel.
*he din join us, I dun wish to forsake our 4 yrs friendship, hope you could put everything behind*
We shop and eat and eat.. We love good food!! Hahax!
Me n lionel did e colouring thingy at CP opp emicakes. There was onli kids there, I was quite paiseh initially but it din really bother me aft awhile.
I had so much fun wif them!! LOVE u guys!

On the 22nd, met up wif yk, ys & yh.
We went to vivo. I watch movie, 4bia. SUPER nice.
It SCARY but at the same quite funny.. so irony..
Ate lunch den shop den slack at mac. Tried the Mc café coffee frappe.. nice nice. Din regret trying it but starbucks drink still better. Hehe.

Some random pics~~

During weekends, i was werking..

Nw i noe hw it feels like to be werking..

damn exhausted lar! i guess i rather study sia.. hehe

Days to look forward to

27/8 - gg out wif yk & nana

28/8 - celebrating wif my yr2 cliques

30/08 - gathering wif skss peeps

31/08 - sleepover (to be confirm)

01/09 - 1st day of fasting mth =)? =(?

03/09 - sch reopen?

okay, tts abt it. more next time~

toodles!

It was just an illusion

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-08-19T00:39:00.008+08:00

Its been long since I blog. Its gonna be a SUPER LONG post!

I shall blog abt e last day of sch first.
We had to paint something as a class, and if its good, it will be put up.
We have very limited time but I guess all of us are satisfied with wat we had done.
This is wat we did. Nice?

Oh well, e next day on Wed, I had my class bbq..
Sad part was tt shan shan cant join us.. she gt sore eyes!
Lucky gt Ilbert to help me carry e beehoon tt I fried and share cab wif me.. they say is quite nice, edible.. hehe =D
Everyting goes well, it was fun! Food was enuf n yummy just tat last min, we ran off fire starter and drinks.. need careful planning next time.=)
The games and forfeit super funny lar! Hahahahaha!
Onli 1 faci came, Ardi, he came wif his Chinese gf.. kind of shock..hahas. Nothing is impossible! Impossible is nothing!
More shocking news is tt he say he will be facilitate Anthropological studies module. The module I chose. Damn it! Hahahaa. I so suay. LOL!
I had so much fun!
Keryn came out with the farm family

Ku~ku~ dog = Sakinah (me)
Turtle = Shan Shan

Lobster = Keryn

Geese = Farah

Birdbird = Ilbert

Saimon = Saiful

Mutated species = Lareina

Keeper of lareina = Ruth

Zookeeper = Nad

Ard 11 plus, I headed home. Bro fetch me, gave lar, ruth, n ilbert a lift home.
Ok ok. Pics time.. Enjoy! =D

I MIA-ed for so long cos I found a job. Werk at my relative shop..
Super tiredz lar! E werking hours is like frm 9 -7pm for merely $50. haiz. den e weather so warm, e shop no aircon lar.. I will surely get sick if I continue to werk dere. Hahax.
He wants me to werk until sch starts but I guess no. I might as well take tis 3 weeks hols to rest, enjoy and finish up my report.. I still got 1000 more words to go. Haiz..

Todae went out wif Jia Jia.. She flying off to LA in e next 2 days. She might be migrating.. I will miss her de.. We din do much.. just shop and eat! Hahax!
Thank you for everyting! Love ya! =) forget me not..

ok ok. tts abt it! off to my dreamland~~
i can face e fact ler
LOVES -Sakinah =D

2008-08-10T23:15:00.005+08:00

This year, on National day, instead of spending my time wif ma frens, i spent my time wif ma sibs. Sorry guys for PS-ing.. hehe.

Well i had fun.. we cam-whored, shopping and eat at Swesens, sis treat us but quite cheap cos got National day discount. hahax. I ordered the mushroom chicken burger.. Not nice lor!! i prefer fastfood rst burgers.. LOL! but nutty mighty ice-cream super nice, suit all nuts lovers like me! hahahahahaha =P

I shall let e pics do e toking.. tiredz zzZzzZZZZzzz..

Well, tts abt it.. More update nxt time..
ToooOOooDddDDlllllEEEeeessss~
*i noe i can do it!!
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-08-09T00:26:00.009+08:00

I am feeling moody nowadays...

but i am lucky to have lots of great frens..

U guys really brighten up my day!! hahax =P

Lesson todae was interesting, imdividual work showing off ur portfolio.

I left after presenting to collect pay with yk, ys and yaw hui. *yaw hui is expo fren/colleague?.

After colecting it, i felt everything was worth it. hahas.

Eat Kfc den watch movie, "Money not enuf2". SUPER nice show..

It made me laugh and cry.. a MUST watch movie - 5 stras frm me!!. hehe.

Thurs was photography lesson, it was very fun as well. Team up with shan, shah, lareina, nad and yj.

It was on fashion spread and our theme is retro geek..

Can u imagine hw much fun we had acting like a geek.. LOL!

We got extra time so took random pictures as well~~

Wed, faci din come so abit slack. Met yk n Nana at Vivo..

They are indeed my besties, my counsellor/advisors.. LOL!

I had a great day althou u guys made me cry.. thk guys!

Nw, i shall let the pics do e toking. hehehhehe

Okay thats abt it.. More updates next time...
Tooodddlllleeeessss~~
*i will not contact u
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-08-05T23:45:00.004+08:00

Mengapakah ia harus berlaku ke atas diriku?

Mengapakah hidupku ini penuh dgn cabaran?

Siapakah aku dihatimu?

Pernahkah ku wujud didirimu?

Rasanya hendakku putus asa, tetapi begitu susah sekali..

Aku tidak dapat menahan perasaan ku terhapadap mu...

Why must all this happen to me?

Why is my life full of challenges and obstacles?

Who am i to u?

Do i even exist in ur life?

I feel like giving up, but its easier said then done..

I cant seems to forget you..

BUT, BUT, BUT

U dun seem to realised my existance..

My presence means nothing to you..

No point holding on to it....

i need to move on~~

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-08-04T23:39:00.006+08:00

Time to blog~~ it gonna be a LONG post..
bear wif me.. hehe =S

Thurs photography lesson was fun.. i tink mayb bcos of the team.
It was a GAL power team, me, shan shan, keryn, seri, lareina and me!!
SUPER fun lar! i enjoyed myself..
BUD BUD.. during the process of taking pic, when i switch on the Red head lights, the bulb burst, SUPER loud den got smoke somemore.. I freak out lar.. I was so near to the red head.. luckily no one was injured.
that aside, pics time....

FRI, DMA lesson, team up wif Huining, shirley, lizann and jasmine.
Wasn't really close wif them but still e lesson was quite fun..
And guess wad, the 'dog' joke still haven end sia.. Even Sam(faci) still toking abt it. Stupid lar.. i will malu de lor..
pics grab frm keryn's blog.. hehe..

*sorry keryn and farah for not joining e outing.. nxt time k? =)

WEEKEND, i was werking at Expo, Watsons Sale.
Super tiring sia.. mayb cos i not use to it ba..
At the early part of e day, i was about to breakdown lar.
I even got the urge to leave but dun wish to put Eva in a spot so i just hang in dere.
My job scope on Sat super Sux lar!!! luckily things change for e better on SUN..
When i get e salary, i so goonna do something meaningful wif it..
I slog my guts out, broke my fingernails, blisters, body aching super badly for just that merely $100+. haiz..
i wonder if its worth it anot.
positive way of thinking - Experience gain... =D
BUt seriously e sale super cheap sia!! bought alot of chocs althou i'm supposed to go on a diet.
aiya heck lar, eat first den diet. hahahahahahahaahahahah!

MON, din go to sch.. i sleep in till 11.30am sia.. haha..
After eating breakfast cum lunch, went to Linz house.. slack abit..
She apply nail polish, purple got glitter somemore.. NICEEEE lor.. was so tempted to do it as well but cannot lar.. My dad will nag like hell, he dun like.. haiz haiz..
After tt, went back to sch cos got UT. sian sian~~
tats abt it.. more nxt time~
i need my beauty sleep! i dun wan be Panda. LOL!

I hate being controlled!
I wan my freedom!
I dun find e need to report to u!
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-07-29T23:39:00.009+08:00

Derrick Hoh - 'D' Day tml!!

Omg!! super happy lar!!

I have been waiting for tis day to come..

I am his no.1 fanatic fan!! he is still as cute as ever..haha..

Anybody wan buy for me his album? LOL! =D

Its very sad to noe tt i am a nobody to him..

shld i still wait? i dun tink so.. moving on~~

jangan kembali ke hidupku..

aku tidak mahu dilukai sekali lagi..

*once is enough..

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-07-28T23:07:00.003+08:00

Weekend was okay.
On Sat, I met up wif YK & YT to do PP. We went to cp lib to do.. Everything goes well beside the point whereby I haf to sit on the floor.. My leg was super numb, back ache sia.
I did 1/5 of my PP ler. A good start, i think. I wanna try completing it by 1 aug if possible. Hahax. After a long day doing our PP, we reward ourselves. We went to Café galilee to eat.. =D

Sun, it was my cousin engagement day. Was not very close to my father's side, so go there show face onli. Hehe. Before gg back, went to the hospital to visit my grandaunt. She just undergo an operation.. thankfully everything went well. =)
As for todae, Creative Concept lesson was easy that made the all of us like dead. No responses until my faci wan gif up.. haha.
The rj ques damn dumb lar; “What can I do to prevent my faci frm sleeping in class?” =.=
Oh yar, CC ut2 is out. I got B+, hurray!! Ut1 I got B. Does tis mean I can pon for e last 2 weeks of tis lesson? LOL! We shall c hw…

okay, thats abt it.. more next time~
TooOOooOooDddDDdDdDdlllLLllLlleeEeEeeEEeeEsSSssSss~~

"Aku tidak dapat menahan perasaan ku terhadap mu..
pedih sungguh rasanya~~ masih menanti.."

*still waiting*
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-07-26T00:11:00.006+08:00

Lesson was super fun todae!!! We gt to choose our own teammates, so ya, I team up wif Shan Shan, keryn, and farah. We were all super high lar.. keep laughing esp at the “dog” joke. LOL! Faci keep saying it was me n shan shan tt spread e laughing disease cos we haf the same drink that was "spike". Hahahahahaha!

Todae’s prob was to create a video that suit the given audio.
This is wat we did.. but no time so we din manage to edit it completely.
Our video veri funny lar, esp my part.. I look so… hahahahahaha
quality wise of the video aint tt gd cos i compressed it..

We oso took some pics..

So well, great day at sch for me! It was enjoyable.

After sch, went to linz’s house. After all had reach, we went to play basketball.
The weather super cold lar.. we were all like shivering.. din play for long.
We chat longer than we play. Hahax.
We gathered back at linz house and ordered KFC.. Yummy yummy!!
Home sweet home after tt~~~

Okay that’s abt it. More next time~
Going to do PP tml.. need to finish it asap.. STRESS!!!

“Haruskah aku putus asa? Tak sanggup hendakku mengahadapinya lagi”
I will let nature take its course…
LOVES – Sakinah =D

2008-07-24T22:53:00.005+08:00

SUPERRrrrr DUPERRRrrrr TIREDDdddd!!!!
Its gonna be a short post. i need more rest. lol!
Todae photography lesson super fun, except for the borrowing of props.
I encounter some wierd pple. scarieeeeee..
Todae objecive was for RP website repreenting the different sch..
My teammates say i got the typical SIT student.. reali meh? hahax

ok, photo time~~~
Thats abt it.. i wanna sleep early, cant be late tml..
*tml play basketball.. YIPPEEE!!
More next time~ ToooOOoDddDdddLLLEeeEeeeSSS!!

Tak sanggup hendak aku mengahadapinya lagi...
LOVES - Sakinah =

2008-07-23T23:50:00.008+08:00

Life still has to go on, be it whether u like it anot..

Todae, I cant wake up, reach class ard 9.15am. SUPER LATE lar!! Due to prob stat being SUPER difficult, I was influence to pon.. Tis time, I wasn’t e mastermind hor. hahahahahaha.
Some went home, but me, shan shan, keryn, farah, huixuan, and Lydia went to the lib. Wat we did the whole day was, eat den play den eat den play.. super relaxing. LOL! It was my 1st time going to the Xbox room.. We share e room with a grp of guys, yr1s..
They quite nice, help us set up.. hehe =D. Had lunch den continue playing, we play board game after tt. It’s been long since I play tt, make me feel like a kid once again. Hahax.
We played upwords, after awhile we were tired of it.. then we play charades. We attract a lot of unwanted attention and make a lot of noise luckily nvr get scolded.
Super funny lar.. laugh until stomach pain. Hahahahaha!
I had a super great time!!

Lots of stuff coming up.
24/07 – Dinner wif bla blas (2b confirm)
25/07 – Basketball wif the babes they all~
26/07 – PP day!
27/08 – Cousin getting engage
30/07 – Bugis outing (I nd new clothes!!)
31/07 – Workshop =(
01/08 - Lakeside thingy
02/08 – Band bbq (nt confirm – dunno halal anot. Haha!)

“Semakin hari, semakin aku merasa sedih
Adakalanya, aku merasa amat letih, letih hendak menyelesaikan masalahku..
Rasanya hendak putus asa.. Aku cuba untuk melarikan diri tapi takda gunanya.
Mengapakah hidupku ini penuh dgn cabaran?
Bolehkah aku mengahadapi segalanya?
Berikanlah aku kekuatan...”

still waiting~~~
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-07-21T23:02:00.004+08:00

Mondae.MOndae.MONdae.MONDae.MONDAe.MONDAE!!!
YUCKY day.. but luckily I haf Shan shan, keryn, farah, jasmine to entertain me..
Chatted online with dem.. veri funny lar they all.. i cant stop laughing at my lappy.. They realli brighten up my yucky day. thanks peeps!
Ard 1pm, had lunch wif them.. den me & shan shan keep teasing keryn..
Do re MI, MI re do…. Do re MI, MI re do... Do re MI, MI re do.. LOL!
This will be our tagline for her, she will understand. LOL!
Having outing wif dem on thurs after UT.. go dunno wat lakeside thingy play wif water.. hahax. *looking forward to it! =P

My journey home, in e bus, saw tis grandma standing right infront of me, looking so fragile wif her 2 hands hold so tightly to e pole. Initially I din want to give up my seat. I am seriously tired lar. I wan to slp. But I cant feign ignorance.
So in e end, I let her haf my seat. Althou it was tiring but NO REGRETS!
Tis incident made me reflect.. made me ponder..
It has been long since I do my volunteer work..
I miss those days whereby me, linz, lionel and Darren rendered our service to Pertapis Children Home. Wonderful memories back den~~
We plan to render our service to other Children home de, but seems tt all of us are super busy.. I tink they forgotten e promise we made tgt.. rite rite?? =(

Where is my Mr Right? Still waiting…
LOVES – Sakinah =D

2008-07-20T23:24:00.005+08:00

Weekend was okay. I use to enjoy weekend the most..
But tis time its different.. no one its at home
Mummy werking.. Daddy werking.. Bro werking… Sis werking.. Younger bro having tuition.. left wif me n sis-in-law onli. Sian sian =(
It was quiet at home.. Wasn’t really use to it lar.. I just have to adapt to it ba.

Was supposed to meet my frens during e weekend bud I cancel it off. LOL!
I just feel very tired. Very very tired.. I need more sleep!!
I feel tt I am lacking of sleep sia.. I got eye bag.. I got dark rings..
Dad says I look like a PANDA!! =(
But thanks mummy!! She bought me whitening eye cream..
Hope it werks. I dun wan be Panda. LOL!

Back to school tml.. Super Duper Sian sia!!! Haiz..
PP still haven complete.. HOW?!! Die die.. T-T

Life must carry on..
Where are you? I am still waiting..
LOVES – Sakinah =D

2008-07-18T00:26:00.004+08:00

Nothing much to blog..
Just that SCH SUX BIG TIME!!! Can i dun go sch??
Oh well, i noe thats impossible..

So ya, went to catch a movie recently wif junrong and serene.. we watch hancock..
it was okay, average lar but i guess its not realli my type of show. hahax.

Oh yar, me n shan shan was given a nickname.. we are called "Pinky and the Brain" She's pinky and i am the brain. Hahahaahhahahaha. sounds familiar?? its a cartoon show if i am not wrong.. not very sure either. hehe =D

show u guys my team's photography pics..
Theme: Unexpected - Just for laugh

My UT grades are getting better.. super happy!! hahax.
Thats abt it.. more next time~ ToooDddddllleeeesss!!

it hurts to noe the truth.. =(
i wan find my MR RIGHT!! where r u?
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-07-13T22:59:00.006+08:00

I decided to heed lionel, lk and jia jia advice. no point avoiding all e time.
I decided to face it.. avoiding would nt solve the problem anyway.
Mayb things will get better after tt.

So ya, went out wif darren.. lionel working and linz not feeling well so they din join us..
It was a suden decision so dun realli haf plans lar..
We were both hungry so we ate lunch at a foodcourt.
I ate the chicken cutlet spaghetti and he ate chicken chop. yummy yummy!

We then took cab to ECP.. chat chat. den we go play arcade at CWP. its has been long since i play arcade lar. It was FUN! hehehe. After tt, we den head home..

Currently i am like so in love with landscape pictures so here are some pics i took todae. =D
darren's house =)

the clouds super nice! LOVE it!
These few daes i have been eating alot sia.. must diet ler.. LOL!

Sunday is family day!! so stayed home, we karaoke! hahahahaha.
In the evening, went for my jog as usual but tis time sis n bro join me..

we played badminton too.. it has been long since we all play together.
great day but yet super exhausting..took some pics..

It was a really a great weekend. enjoy it alot!
back to school tml.. sian~
got UT somemore... haiz
Thats abt it.. more next time~~

i wan to find my MR RIGHT! LOL!
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-07-10T23:39:00.004+08:00

As usual, i was late for school. We were stuck in traffic jam lar!
There was an accident and it was raining so it slows the whole traffic.

Oh well, photography lesson todae. We had to take pic to promote our give product.
My team's product was BROWN SUGAR.. PROMOTE BROWN SUGAR.. Did someting very cliche.. show u guys the pic.

It was a long day.. Had Ut afer school.. It was okay, still doable. so i hope i can score.. hahax.
Went home wif Shan shan and 2 of her frens, Huixuan and Lydia.
They are nice peeps, easy to get along wif. =D

thats abt it.. more nxt time~
Tooooodddddllleeeessssssssss~~~

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-07-09T23:09:00.002+08:00

I finally started on my PP. YiPPEEE!! give me at least 1 week, i shall complete it. i hope so.. hahax. Something funny happen in the lib todae.. but cant share later somebody will smack me. LOL! Me, YK and WX den catch a movie aft tt. We watch the show, "its a girl-boy thing"..
Find the show pretty average, the plot is can predict de lar but still quite funny so 3 stars.. =D

Oh yar, mummy ex-boss offer her a job. She will start work next Mon.
I wonder how my life gonna be.. chaotic? who gonna cook? am i gg to eat takeaways everyday? household chores? sis-in-law giving birth soon, who gonna look after her? after the baby?
I just hope evrything goes well.. =)

Not feeling very well.. feeling super cold, shivering and flu.. i keep on sneezing lar..
hope i will get better after a gd rest.. tts abt it. more next time~
Tooooooddddddddddddlllllllllleeeeeeeesssssssssss~~~

*i treasure friendship more than a relationship
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-07-08T00:11:00.007+08:00

Mondae blues.. Mondae blues...Mondae BLUES!!!

Todae lesson kindda sux big time.. teaming up wif the yr 3s aint a gd thing.

I think i spoke less than 10 sentence in class todae.. very difficult to communicate wif them esp de wierdo fren.. haiz haiz..

After sch met up wif YK and Nana. They realli brighen up my moooodyy day.

Wanted to eat at Swensen but it was packed so we had dinner at Breeks..

This is what we order; grilled fish lime pasta, grilled cajun chicken chop (2), Ocean and dunnoe wat delight drink ( one taste like tap water and the other taste like mango syrup. LOL!) as well as dessert; MASSIVE attack(YK treat, she got her pay, hahax THKS!)

After eating halfway, we started started to take MORE pics.. we attract alot of attention but WHO CARES.. We are having FUN!! LOL!

We eat Super long lar! ard 2 hr sia.. hahax.. den HOME SWEET HOME..
Reach home ard 8.45.. bathe n just on time for the 9pm debut show.. hahax..
tiredzz.. tml stil got sch.. ZZZzzzzZZZzzZZzZZZzZzZZzzzzZZZzz...

Random pics i took on Sundae when i go to my aunty house..
I was wearing RED.. Look like hongbao sia.. haahahahahahahahah

Well, more next time..
Off to dreamland~~~ ToooOOodddlllEEeeeSSSs
not looking but just waiting for it~~
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-07-06T00:51:00.004+08:00

I LUV THE SURPRISE!! SUPER GREAT DAY!!!

Thanks peeps! U people realli brighten up my day.. LUV U ALL!! =D
The wind, the scenery, and with u guys as my companion just make my day..
BYE TROUBLES, COME HAPPINESS! LOL!
Took lots of pics.. but all very unglam sia.. Stupid Wind! - make my hair so messy..
So where did i go? look at the pics and u shall noe.. mysterious abit.. ahahahahaha..

due to e weather, ordered my "fav" drink..
After being sweaty and tired, we hang out at Square 2, had dinner and Home Sweet Home.
A very long day but its all worthwhile.. nw super tired.. SUPER EXHAUSTED!
more pics next time~~
tml need to go aunty house for dunno wad gethering - sian! =(

PS: I am realli fortunate to have u peeps as my frens! I so gonna treassure u all! LOVES!!
“The furthest ain't between the heaven and the hell; the cruelest ain't between life and death. It is, I'm facing u now, and you don't know I love u.”

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-07-04T23:21:00.004+08:00

This week photography lesson, i totally screwed up big time. I was late! ard 20 mins late but faci mark me as NIFM.. WTH lar! sadded =(
The photo i took super not nice, dun haf the artistic and "wow" factor..

Super dissapointing den during presentation.. i STUTTERED!!! like WTH!

However, i had great time taking photos on ourselves. LOL!

Halfway, we were caught by justyn lar! He even imitate our actions. super paiseh.. hahax =D

sabrina the Teenage WITCH! LOL!

Todae was DMA.. It was okay lar, getting the hang of it ler.
Faci lets us slack. We 9am released for 1st meeting ler.. he like super nice todae lar. hex.
Tml gg out.. destination? i not sure.. they say its gonna be a surprise. -.-

Off to dreamland~ Tooooodddllllleeesss!
having fun is all tt i wan rite nw... bye troubles!
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-07-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

Nothing much to blog todae. sch was as usual. Movie date was cancel T-T. Its kindda difficult to gather tgt. All of us are busy with our own stuff. haiz haiz.

Oh yar, I decided to take extra elective in sem 2. I rather to get over and done with quickly. hahax =D.
So ya, i chose Anthropological studies. So chim rite? I not sure wad the module is abt. But i heard is more on gg outdoors and learn abt humankind and human pattern.. Sounds interesting huh? Sadly there are only 2 classes for tis module, hope i will get.. hahax.

Tml my class will be film, cant be late..
off to dreamland~ Toodllleeesss

PS : can we remain status quo?
start of something new?
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-07-01T23:48:00.005+08:00

Faci was in good mood.. i was not mark late althou i reach class at 0840. hahax.
Todae prob stat was quite easy. We just had to reinterpret the original painting into singapore context.
the original painting;

Our new version;

Our new version so kiddish sia.. like so pri sch. but hor, cant blame us.. we dun even have the right materials to do the painting. i must reali improve on my drawing skills ler.. hahx =D

After sch, went to CP wif YK. We had dinner at Banquet. We started chatting and i started to confide in her. I keep on crying tis few daes. like baby sia. LOL! However, It feels real good to say out everything rather than keeping it bottled in my heart.
How i wish my life would be without worries, troubles and unrequited love.

I was compiling my grades, here a sneak peek.. its totally sucky as compared to my yr1s grades.
Grades
HOA - B, B, B, B, X, B, B, X, B
DMA - C, X, B, B, B, C, C, B, B
PGY - B, B, C, X, C, B, C, B, B, B
ACA - C, C, B, B, B, B, C, X, C, D
CC – C, B, B, X, A, A, X, B, C

I so gonna work hard to improve on my grades.. gonna start my PP real soon..
off to dreamland~
A whole NEW me! no more crying!
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-30T23:06:00.005+08:00

I feel so much better now!

I wan to be the OLD me!

I wan to be the the smiley me!

HAhahahahaha! =D

Oh well, a new week.. sch.. haiz =(

team was okay but prob stat was super duper sian.

Fall asleep during break time.. My eyebags and dark rings geting worse ler..

it must be due to my sleepless nights during the weekends.

So Super Duper Tired! ZZzzzZZZZZzZZZzzZzz..

Met Lin Keong and Jia Hui to catch a movie, "Don't mess wif the Zohan" to cheer myself up.

Luckily tis time no need wait for dem.. i dun reali lyk waiting for pple. haz..

Lk treat me the movie ticket.. he act gentleman onli - he actualy doesn't haf to lor, Mrs Kwa oso not there.. LOL! but thks aniwae.. =D

Overall, the movie was quite ok, quite hilarious but abit gross sia. so 3 stars. hahax!

Head home aft. took the same bus as JiaHui.. we communicate more tis time. he not so shy le. i even manage to dig out some hidden secrets..hahax.

Was quite hungry so met up wif jia jia at HP eat Mac for dinner.

oh yar, i met derek, approach him and say hi.. he like blur blur sia.. he say i changed alot. nearly cant recognised me. i got change alot meh? hope i change for the better.

Show u guys some random pics when in sec sch..

Can spot me? bottom right, super unglam!!
look super blur lar.. top right
Elites of SKRCY..

compared to now got difference??
Now, still trying to lose more weight and haf a new image soon. LOL!

Wed - movie wif BFFs (Get Smart), hope wun cancel again..
Thurs - movie wif shan shan(to be confirm)
Sat - ECP with shir, serene, junrong and ???
Sun - PP dae! i wan finish do my report. sian.

Lots of stuffs gg on. schedule very pack.. but i tink its a good thing. i need to de-stress. hahax
Off to my dreamland.. Tooodles!
wishful thinking of mine??
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-29T23:03:00.002+08:00

Having so much problems..
SCHOOL!! RESULTS!! FAMILY!! RELATIONSHIP!! HIM!!!
I dunno why but its like too much for me to handle..
My frens keep saying everything will be fine but u guys are not in my shoe.
U wun understand how i feel. U wun noe how much pressure i haf on me..
I am so tired.. i dunno how to move on..

I really dun feel like gg sch tml.. but do i have a choice? i doubt so
Anybody wan pon?
Lets watch movie! Play Pool! Bowling! Go ECP!
i need a break!!!

Thanks to all that stand by me.. i appreciate it..
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-27T22:59:00.003+08:00

Life is indeed like a roller-coaster ride. There are always ups and downs.
I haf always tot that i am strong but i guess not.
i feel so down todae.. felt so horrible.. I feel like crying.. I am going to breakdown soon.
ARrrGGgghhhHHhhHHhHHhhHh!! I cant take it anymore!!

I think i need time to cool it off.. I need to be alone..

Will u be by my side? Will u stand by me?
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-26T23:36:00.004+08:00

Photography lesson!! Theme - "Greener on the other side"

I was team up with Hilmi and Eugene yet again.. like abit suay sia. LOL!

However, dunno why, the Eugene that i labelled as WIERDO, was very nice to me todae.

We communicate more todae. He sat next to me, teases me, he oso help me with my post-production. We even play game tgt. LOL!

i guess i am changing my impression on him. He is actually nice de.. =D

This are the pics we took;

27 June 08 - Sis-in-law Bdae. HApPy BdaE!
Bought d24 Durian Cake from Emicake, CP. We cut the cake at 12 midnight. She so touch until cry lar..

Yea.. tts abt it.. nw veri late ler.. off to my dreamland! toodles!

blowing hot & cold.. y r u doing tis to me?
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-25T23:08:00.005+08:00

Din realli have the mood go sch todae. i had to basically drag myself to sch.

Lesson just sux big time. Its always like tis on Wed.

The whole day in sch, i onli eat fruits.. very healthy huh?? hahax.

We slack quite alot.. took some pics to entertain ourselves.. hehe =D

After sch went to meet BFFs, Linz, Lionel & Darren at PS. Initially wan watch movie but CANCEL.. It became a dinner date instead. hahax.

Lionel kor kor treat us eat at swensen.. He got his pay..Isn't he just so sweet and nice?? LOL!
I ate almost the same thing ytd, calamari rings(my fav!!), spaghetti and for dessert we had e earthquake.. it felts great when u were sharing.. Iwill update e pics when i get frm Linz.
We were eating and chatting as per norm.. i was conversing in both english and chinese as usual.
Out of sudden, the guys sitting next to us just interupt and say, "u speak chinese?", giving me tt surprise look. Like so kaypo lar. MYOB. hahax.
I told them i was mixed blood - malay cum chinese. They believe lar.. so dumb sia! LOL

When we are done eating, we go off, walk walk,den the grp of guys was like following us. Den dunno who push who, one of the guy came banging on Linz. He was saying, "can we be frens? can i haf ur no.?". Obviously, I tot the guy was toking to Linz so i just walk off. i dun wish to get involved ma. but shockingly, he walk towards me and say, "i am sincere..", like dotz lar!! i was like super stumped! i din even say anything lar! i felt so malu sia.. Luckily, darren came to my rescue. he posed as my bf. super funny sia he. but thnks! hahax.
Kena tease all e way till i reach home. i haf such evil frens! hahaz. A funny yet scary encounter. =D

"BF"- darren give me gifts. t-shirt frm KL(gonna wear it tml. hehe) and test tub key chain wif my name on it. THKS!!

We were like so exhausted so we cabbed home. reach home ard 10pm. Super tired. tml still gt sch. den got UT! i haven study. haiz..
I cant deny the fact tt i am in love wif u
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-24T23:19:00.004+08:00

Todae din see Eva & Yankang in the bus - So ya, it means i am nt late for class. Hurray!

Lydia took over the lesson yet again but nvm, cos she's great! she make e whole class lively.
So it was quite okay. I kind of slack in class. nothing much to do..
My RJ ques was, " How do u describe ur perfect day?"
If i had to answer in just 1 line, my ans wuld be : When you were by my side..
Seriously, i dun tink i expect much. I dun need gifts, i dun need to be taken to a expensive restaurant. I just wan u by my side.. is as simple as tt.. but yet it seems to be so difficult.. haiz..

After sch, met up wif YK & Nana. It has been long since the 3 of us sat down and haf a meal 2gther.
We had dinner at Cavanna. Had a heavy dinner, we ordered like alt of stuffs, appetizer, main course and dessert.
Din reali like the place, the ambience din werk for me.
The food there is just average. No next time i guess. hehe =D.
show u guys the pics,

Head home aft tt. Saw Dicky and Jessie at the bus-stop.. sat awhile and chat wif dem..
Reach home ard 8 plus.. tiredz.. zzzz..
So nt looking forward to tml lesson.. T-T

Oh yar, b4 i forget, i would like say THKS to EVA for helping me with the blogskin. =D

i cant deny the fact tt i am in love wif u...
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-23T22:48:00.005+08:00

Monday -- back to school.
its something that i not looking forward to. YR 2 just sux big time!
i woke up late todae - worst was that, i have BAD HAIR DAY!
In the end, i give up on my hair and just anyhow clip it.
The bus was SUPER pack.. i had to squeeze.
Then hor.. the guy standing behind me so inconsiderate, he take so much space.
He keep banging into me lar!! freaking hell shit! make me no mood.
I tot of ponning cos veri late ler.. but luckily i did nt cos i cant.
due to me having UT(hell!!) and module selection briefing..
Lesson was okay.. direct and straightforward.
i din tok much in class..
stomach feel so queasy.. head spinning..
i dun wan get sick agn, i must eat vitamins! LOL!

oh yar, today i received lots of compliments todae. *blush*
Mich : u look pinky & girly (does tt mean i dun look lyk girl last tym??)
Jess : u look great todae! nice hair!
Keryn : u look different in a gd way.. hw u make ur hair? i oso wan do liddat..
Seri/Farah : U look pretty todae.. shld make ur hair liddat all e time.
Annie : i nearly cant recognise u.. nice nice..
Alvin : after the weekend, u suddenly bcome prettier..
Its so irony.. i am having bad hair day but yet,
people are praising me. wierd!
but thks for the compliments peeps! hahahaha!

After UT went home directly.. felt so exhausted..
i just felt tt i lack of rest.
i wan to sleep.. Sleep.. sleep.. sleep..Sleep.
off to dreamland!
**So looking forward to our BFFs movie date - "Get Smart"
avoiding is the only solution, i guess..
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-21T22:59:00.006+08:00

Its the weekend! i just love weekends!
its the time i could just relax and enjoy. Yippee!!

In the afternoon, went out wif jia jia.
so long never meet up wif her ler.
She look different, it must be the hair.. hehe =D
She wants a make-over. She wan be more girly. LOL!
Follow her go This Fashion. Help her choose clothes.
so ya, i oso buy. I cant resist the temptation! hahax!

After that she meet up wif her frens do project while i met up wif mummy.
Follow mummy go hospital. Visit grandaunt.
Her condition is better but have to stay in the hospital for another 6 weeks due to dunno wat antibiotic that she has to take. had to wear mask before entering the ward.
took some pics! i suddenly feel like being a doctor! LOL!

My rebonded hait abit curl ler..
what shld i do wif my hair?
Rebond agn? Perm? cut short?
Shld i haf a new image oso?
i shall decide later.. hehe

off to watch dvd, 27 dresses. Toodddllleeees!
I love to have u by my side =)
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-20T21:41:00.005+08:00

THURS - Photography lesson

We change team, i team up with Koko, Hilmi(PRO), SHaun(emo), Eugene(wierdo).

Coincidently all of us wear black lar!

So ya, the onli gal, it was very wierd initially but still okay lar..

Each of us onli like take 3 shots each.. We super slack lar. Hehe =D

My team theme was, "Is this Home?"

Show u guys the pics i took. nice nice? i was votted to be one of the so called "winner". hahax.

FRI- i reach class at 9am. 1/2 an hour late. i was so embarrased to enter the class but no choice. teammates was okay - with Koko again. hex.

DMA lesson, Animation

We had to bounce a ball and show a smooth animation. seems easy but NOT!

It was a super troublesome problem. We had to do do it like step by step. keep repeating the same actions again and again.

After we had do finish, save it and after that GONE!! like WTH!

We had to then re-do all over again.. Super waste time..

But still, i am quite sastified with our End-product. *grrinnsss*

For the past 2 days, i had UT. Both oso difficult. Then the photography UT, i was expected to draw the photo i wan to take and include all props, lightings, location that i wan to use. i was like OMG!! I CANT DRAW LAR!

i drew some stick figures and CRAP.. dunno faci will understand anot. hahax!

i am really worried of my grades. i cant afford to screw up animore de. hw hw? haiz.

More updates next time. i need to sleep!! i need rest!!

my body cant take it ler. gg to breakdown soon.

Aku cinta padamu..

Gembira hanya utk sementara??

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-18T21:45:00.003+08:00

SIck SIck SIck..
i starting to lose my voice ler.. =(
i hate getting sick, i hate eating medicine. BITTER!!

TUES, make 3 new frens at woodlands lib. they were studying for their Os but were distracted by us; me, yk & akira (WX). we shared table wif dem. they were interesting. One of them was Shanim Shafiq Loo. still remember his name cos like so special lar; mixed malay-chinese. cute somemore. hehe =D
We watch movie, MISSING.
SUPER NOT NICE. HATES!! i dun realli understand lar.
i even doze off at the ending. hehe.

WED, lesson was okay, but onli 9 came. super pathetic lar!
but lesson still end late.. faci super naggy!!
went home directly aft tt wif annie.
weather was super nice, doze off in e bus. luckily nvr miss my stop.

Off to rest.. tata!
"Gembira hanya utk sementara.. aku masih menungu.."
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-16T22:23:00.004+08:00

SUN - last day of holidaes..

- went out wif my family. it has been long since all 7 of us are free at the same time.

- we went AMK n CP

- shop alot, (bought a phone, dress, shoe) - i luv shopping! GSS ROX!

- dinner at MAC. yummy!

- Dad pay for everyting althou its fathers day! hehe. i luv daddy!

Pics time - we r bored, u c..

MON - 1st day of sch!! haiz.. i wan holidae!! I woke up late todae, mummy wake me up at 6.30am, 1/2 an hour where enuf to get ready sia.so ya, took cab again with the usual 4s. hehe. reach class ard 8.40am but wasn't mark late. YiPpee!! faci super nice.
oh yar, due to wearing new shoes, leg super pain! blisters!! regret wearing shoe. T-T

lesson was fun yet quite difficult - but lots of time to slack. haha! ended at 3pm, waited for YK den Home Sweet Home!It was raining and the wind was super strong. So i was drenched lar!! after 20mins of waiting and being wet, bus finally arrived.

WET + AIRCON = SICK FEELING!!

i had like bad headache after that, my throat feel wierd. Nearly miss my stop. Thks CX & Ray for the reminder.The moment i reach home, ZZzzzZZzzzzz.. for 1/2 an hour. tired! hehe =D

i cant afford to get sick now. going to haf an early nite.
i luv ur companion, can u be by my side all e time?

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-14T22:05:00.013+08:00

Friday, 13 June.
I went out.. i was looking out of the car window when mummy drive across KK hospital.
That was where it started and ended.
I tot i had forgotten everything but todae, it made me realise that i am actually deceiving myself.

That place hold a great significant to my life.
I had some pleasant flashbacks, fond memories,
but at e same time, i noe its no longer the same..
everything has change.

I know i haf to face the reality.. no point looking back.
I so wanna start afresh..
NOW, i just wanna spend all my time wif my dear frens that have always been there for me.
I will stay strong and always happy.
FRIENDS ARE LOVESSSSSS... =D

Sat, 14 June.
Todae, supposed to meet up wif BFFs to play pool and hang out.
BUT, i din go at the last min. hehe. i have headache so no mood. just feel like sleeping. hahax.
sorry guys, we shall go out next time ya?

In the evening, after feeling much better, i went out wif sis-in-law to buy gift and cake for FATHERS DAY! going to celebrate at 12 midnight. LUV u daddy!!

Sch reopening soon. super sian!! i haven even start on PP. haiz.

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-12T21:52:00.002+08:00

todae, nothing much happen, so got nothing to blog. haha!
oh well, went out wif mummy to SS, bought some grocery stuff and went to my aunty house.
After that, we had our dinner den Home Sweet Home!
So ya, thats abt it.

Oh yar before i end off, i would like to wish HAPPY BDAE to my dearest jessie!! may all ur wishes come true.. althou we din celebrate tgt but i am sure u will haf a great time wif dicky. haha!! update me yar. LOL!

off to watch my America's Next Top Model..
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-12T00:04:00.005+08:00

Time for me to update. its gonna be a long wordy post i guess..
Went out wif YK and 2 of her frens, Lin Keong & Jia Hui on tues.
We go PS, like super sian lar, nothing much there.
I met YK first, we were supposed to meet her frens at 3pm but they were damn late lar.
So me and YK went shopping first. Sales are going on, so it was fun browsing stuff.
First impression on YK frens - one was quiet and the other was a joker. initially it was super wierd and scary lar. hahax.

i was just joking with the guys that they are late so have to treat us to movie. Din noe they would take it seriously, so yes - FOC movie ticket for me & yk! It was nice of them huh? hahax. but i din take advantage of them hor, me & yk paid for the "food" & drinks.
oh well, so we we watch Kungfu Panda. I find it average, quite funny, i will rate it 3 stars. hehe.
Then we went for dinner, everywhere at PS was packed so we head back to CP and eat KFC.
Den i had to rush to HP, meet darren accompany him eat dinner - he treat me Mcflurry and gave me a gift for no reason. hahax =D thanx buddy!

On wed, went to meet Didi & Serene, we go ECP. initially they just say go strolling but when we reach, they change their mind, they say wan go cycling. i was like WTH!!
Ever since that suay incident of me crashing the dustbin, i never dare to cycle anymore. it has become a phobia but Didi insisted so i no choice. he say he will protect me. BULLSHIT LAR! We took the 2 pple bike but he lost control and we fall. DAMN PAIN LAR! i suffered bruises and scratches. T-T

After the fall, i no mood lar! we just admire the sunset after tt. long tired day.
Tml no plans wif frens but going out wif mumy.. and now off to my dreamland...

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-09T23:17:00.006+08:00

After a long day ytd, i woke up quite late, din went for my morning jog also..
Morning : ate breakfast that was already served for me.. hahaha!
Day : went to the airport to fetch my relatives & went to the hospital, visit my grandaunt.
Night : slack at home, watch tv & surf the net, reading up the manual for photoshop. (i need to brush up my skills)

yea.. tts abt it. looks like my holidays quite sian huh? who ask my besties to be all working.. they should be like me, never work den easy to date them go out tgt. hehehe =D

tml meeting up wif YK, she bringing a fren along and its Lin Keong. i dunno the guy. he is YK sec sch fren. YK did mention him before me. if i am nt wrg, he interested in YK. but YK say no, they just fren.. as if i will believe lar.. HAHAHA!
SO WILL I BE THE LAMP POST?? SHLD I STILL GO THEN? WONT IT BE WIERD?!
haiz.. dunno lar.. we see how it goes tml.

New me. New life. New beginning.
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-09T00:01:00.006+08:00

For the past few days, i have been busy helping out in the preparation for my cousin wedding.
I had to help my mother in making those "kuih" and keep going to n fro to my cousin house to help out in what ever they need..

My cousin Helmi official married Lubna on the 08/06/08. Wishing them a happy marriage.
On the wedding day itself, they were so many people. seats were quite limited so it was kindda chaotic.. i stand for like the whole day with my high heels serving food and drinks, now whole body aching. haiz..
Although its abit tiring, i kinda enjoy myself. Its tiring yet fulfilling. btw the photographer was HOT lar! hahax
Here are some pics.. :p

Finally its over!!

For the last week of my holidaes, i shall spend more time wif ma frens.. missing u guys!!

tml had to wake up quite early, need to fetch my ganny, aunty & uncle from the airport.

*still wating for u to approach me - do i even exist in ur life?

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-04T23:12:00.003+08:00

Nothing much to post about todae..
Todae went to the hospital to visit my grandaunt. She had an operation ytd.. look quite okay but she din joke wif me like she used to. Hope she get well soon.

I love kids, they are cute rite? BUT, after todae, kids TERRIFIED me..
There is this one little girl keep sticking and pestering me when i was visiting my grandaunt. She's abit rebellious, keep taking my stuff and throw here and there.. i was like super pissed off but calm myself down.
But when she pull my hair, GAME OVER! she gets on my nerve big time!!! i love my hair lar!!! lol. i wanted to scold her or something but cant bring myself to do it. i just have to close one eye. haiz..

Nana AEROPLANE me n yk. She last min back-out. We were supposed to go out tml de. haiz haiz.. that means tml in the early part of the day, i will be rotting at home.
Mummy making ang ku kueh tml den must help.. sian sian..

I love reading quotes when i am bored, here are some quotes that caught my attention..
Love = The way to love anything is to realize that it may be lost. Gilbert K. Chesterton
Dreams = Dreams are today's answers to tomorrow's questions. Edgar Cayce
Friendship = When a friend is in trouble, don't annoy him by asking if there is anything you can do. Think up something appropriate and do it. Edward W. Howe
Time = Time is what we want most, but what we use worst. William Penn
Success = Success is going from failure to failure without a loss of enthusiam. Winston Churchill

thats abt it..
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-06-03T23:46:00.008+08:00

Its time for me to update.

let me refresh wat had happen... Last 2 days of sch was kindda cool but i was already in the holiday mood. haha!

pic for photography lesson, theme : potraits

Then TAAAA----DAAAA... HOLIDAES!!! yeah! i was so looking forward for holiday.life has been so tiring. i need a rest. NO, i mean i wanna hang out wif frens!!! hehe.

Weekends was okay. Sat din reali do anything..except for going to the airport, sending of my grandma, aunties and uncles for their "holidae". they will be back on the 9 June.. very long hor.

took some pic before going out.

Then we went to tampines Giant to but baby stuff.. Babies stuff super cute lar.. but for baby boy like abit limited. hehe.

took some pics of the stuff we bought.. show u guys.

On Sunday, basically went out wif my family again. Weekends are family day!! Went out to shop.. its great Singapore sales u see... Sis n Sis-in-law bought a bag each..

but i went home empty-handed.. all those stuff that caught my eye all SUPER EX de.. so din buy. sadded =(

oh yar.. my muffins was half-success!! yippee!! although it din look very good but its our first attempts. still can improve de.. the 4 muffins represents me, linz, darren & lionel(althou u din came to help, haha!).

Thats abt it. i will update more next time.

*Cherish before losing it

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-28T22:28:00.004+08:00

Cant sleep ytd.. woke up quite early.. i had so much on mind.
but luckily todae is "holidae" so no need go school.

stayed at home the whole day..
no mood to go out even though BFFs jio me go East coast.
i seriously have no mood to do anything..
i dunno how to describe my feeling rite now. feeling kinda low.
so what i did at home was just watching tv, msning, eat and eat and eat..
i am back to my BAD old habit - EATING CHOCOLATES when i am feeling down.
i ate so much chocolates.. stomach pain.. hehe. like super dumb lar.
onli had ferero rocher at home, eat half of it den sian..

so went to the shop nearby my house and buy MORE chocolates!!!

After eating lots of chocolates, it din seems to make me feel better. haiz..

haf sch tml.. haiz.
Can i go to sch and pretend nothing had happen?
*thanks to all that show me concern. i appreciate it. i just need more time.

LOVES - Sakinah =(

2008-05-27T22:28:00.005+08:00

Todae i woke up late.. the bus i board was already pack so it was kindda obvious YK sure cant board the bus de.
So in the end i alighted at CP and share cab with yewkee, eva & yankang.
Reach school at ard 8.30am, just nice, i wasnt mark late. hehe

Lesson : History of the Arts
My faci din come, Lydia came to take over the class. like yeah! she's nice lar. haha!
We had to come up with a design on a furniture with regards to cave paintings - animals.
My team borrowed the drawing tablet from the media lab. i din noe i could borrow that lar..
Its super cool. its like u draw on the tablet but it appear on ur lappy. WOW! haha.
Let me show u my team's design, its a coat hanger lamp, simple yet nice. * i think.hehe

After school, walk with mich to the bus-stop. We walk under the rain lar.. if i get sick, it will be mich fault. LOL. saw eva, eva's fren & yankang. they accompany me during my journey home. hehe.

Went online as usual at 9pm, busy msning my cliques and that anonymous that is totally freaking me out.

den HE suddenly msn me..
giving me that RAY OF HOPE when i decided to give up on him..
giving me the EXCITEMENT FEELING when i am down..
MAKING ME LAUGH AND KEEP SMILLING at my lappy when i am actualy feeling lousy..
BUT GOOD THINGS NEVER LAST!!
forgetting him is not a wrg decision.
supper sadded. i dunno how to describe tis feeling but it hurts badly.
how i wish i could go to the beach and just scream or a shoulder to cry on.i have to forget all this and MOVE ON!
*thanks lionel, darren,linz for being there for me.. i shall stay strong!

*erasing u frm my memory - 3%

Sakinah =D

2008-05-27T00:12:00.004+08:00

Timecheck - 12.08am!!
Its so late yet i haven slp..

tml still got UT

yawn.. feeling abit tired now..

nothing peculiar happen todae..

just that todae got one anonymous person added me in msn.

i ask him like 3 times who is he before he reply me lar..

den finally found out that i dunno him, and he dunno me.

he got my email from friendster..

he ask me lots of ques lar.. but nvm.. No harm making new fren rite? hehe

Oh yar, todae had muffins for dinner, sis-in-law bake.

BLUEBERRY muffins but not a fan of blueberry. i prefer chocolate chip.. hehe.

I suddenly have cravings for more muffins and cakes..

Anyone wanna bake for me?? = although i can easily buy it, i prefer handmade ones. hehe

Some random pics on muffin and cakes;

*erasing u off frm my memory - 2%

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-25T21:27:00.007+08:00

Weekend is like so relaxing but yea it ended like so fast lar.

SAT - din do much.. just slack at home, watch DVD - horror, Deadly Ghost.

SUN - Went to my grandma house, got gathering. Stay there for quite a while den went to shop and have dinner at CP's Swensen - I love Swensen!

Some random pics

- At Swensens.

- In the Car.

Yea, thats abt it.. Tml still got sch. Going off now. Update more next time.

* erasing u frm my memory - 1%

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-23T22:15:00.005+08:00

Todae i nearly overslept. I could not wake up. It has been like tis for like the past 1 week.Took the 7.45am bus, it was pack lar.. din get a seat.. sadded.
Reach sch ard 8.45am, know wad, i wasn't mark late. Super lucky lar!

DMA lesson, we did VIDEO todae. It was FUN yet super exhausting.. lots of work to do and worst, we were recording it under the hot scorching sun. Whatever it is, its a real great experience being the Camerawoman/Soundwoman.
My interest in this Media industry is growing.. Its seems fun but i will still pursue my dream, to be a POLICEWOMEN. hahahaha. hope it will come true.

Life is a journey through many terrain
From gardens of pleasure to deserts of pain
From an ocean of love to a jungle of hate
From Mountains of glory to canyons of fate.
There's a highway for joy and a highway for sorrow
A Road for today and a road for tomorrow.
So choose your path wisely and walk with care
If you follow your heart, you'll find your way there.
Sylvia Chidi

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-22T21:47:00.011+08:00

I am exhausted!

So, i shall let the pictures do the talking..

Photography Lesson, theme: SPLASHES of water!

Now is FUN times!!! This was suggested by keryn.. i am jus playing along.. haha!

This is after edditting, merging some of the pics together..

Yea.. thats abt it.. Super tired, i need my rest if not i surely get sick. LOL! MOre updates next time. TrALaLaLaLaLA!!

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-21T22:33:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BDAE to my beloved bro, Faiz!!

Today's lesson is super boring yet easy..

Initially, i wan pon de but due to YK is werking and persuasion by Jing Jing & Shan Shan, i decided to stay. Aniwae it will be quite wasted to pon halfway hor?

Oh well, after sch went to CP to buy cake and drop by at Mr BEAN. I bought my fav drk, PEARLY!! hehe.

At ard 8 plus, after all have reach home, we den cut cake.. MANGO CAKE!! yummmy =D

I oso took pics with Bdae boy. but abit unglam.. hehehe

Yea.. thats all. nothing much.. Tml is photography, hope everything goes well..

Nothing is Eternal. Nothing is Forever.

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-20T22:00:00.009+08:00

I have good news and bad news.

Let me start wif the good news.

I got my first A!! Let me repeat, my 1st A!!

given by my creative concept faci. Like OMG lar..

But thinking abt it, like abit pathetic sia, already 6 weeks of sch, i only haf 1A.

How to achieve my last yr GPA of 3.3? like so impossible sia since i screw up almost all of my UT lar. But nvm, i try to work harder.. i try. LOL!

Bad news, Act 3 finally reply my email BUT they reject my request.

They dun wan to help me.. so evil!! den give some stupid reason saying they are busy with their upcoming activities. WTH! Die die..

How to do interview for my PP den? Can i re-do my PP scope althou its already accepted? haiz.. Dunno. i will have headache thinking abt my PP stuff.

Went to Compass Point after sch to shop for my younger bro bdae present. Met up wif Gong gong, Lionel.

Walk and walk and walk, still haf no idea what to buy for him so in the end i decide to give him cash so that he can buy whateva he wants. Tml after sch, i will then buy him a cake to celebrate...

Thanks "gong gong" uncle for the companion and the famous amos, appreciate it alot.=D

Some random pics taken during the weekend & public holidae

"Sis-in-law & me"

"Me & Sis"

"Banana Split. yummy yummy.."

Yea thats all. Update more next time. tml still gt sch.

Nothing is Eternal. Nothing is Forever.

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-19T21:59:00.005+08:00

Its gonna be a super long post.
Been SUPER busy this few days.. Super tiring.. i need motivation badly!

Wednesday
Lessons was per normal, just that there is only 10 pple in my class. Its like so pathetic lar. Initially i tot, we could end early but my faci drag until 4pm. WTH sia!
Upon reaching home, saw someone special at my void deck, waiting for me.
SUPER SHOCKING! but ya, it was a wonderful surprise.
What happen next, let it be a mystery.. hehe =)

Thursday
DMA lesson. IT WAS FUN FOR THE FIRST TIME!!
It was like the experience of being a DJ. We had to go to the lab and do recording indoors and outdoors. cool huh? But good things doesn't last. My team was the first team to present and we got BOMBARDED wif lots of questions. haiz...
Den UT! it was hell yet again. Its creative concept UT. We had to show our creativity but in 30 mins like so not possible sia. i can't think lar. so ya, i screw up again.

Friday
We did debate todae. Yippee! i love debate lar but my team is the judge. Din have the opportunity to show off my talent. hahahaahahaaha!
I was so into the debate and ask lots of questions. i felt so bad after that sia.
It was Survivor finale! watch the show until 2am sia. It was fun but sadly Amanda din won.
Anticipating the new season, tis time its at Africa. can i participate? haha!

Saturday
Todae i did household chores for like the whole dae? clening here & there. So exhausted!
I need a maid!! I want a maid!! I so wish kak Yati will come back to werk for us.

Sunday
Went out early in the morning, send my younger bro for his religious class and have breakfast wif my parents. Next, we head to my grandma house. Its been long since i visit her. She going for HAJ next mon. Praying for her safe trip.
In the evening, me, mummy, daddy n sis go Hougang Point. Then back home, watch DVD, Ah Long Pte Ltd till late nite. I dun reali find it nice, lucky din go cinema to watch the show. haha!

Nothing is Eternal. Nothing is Forever.
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-13T21:41:00.005+08:00

Feeling so sick in the morning.. yet had to drag myself to sch. no choice. sadded.

Had Photography module todae as usual took pictures.

Theme: Retro with either landscape or building for a band album cover.

Show u guys the pic i took. *Thanks team mates for posing on my shot!

Show u guys one more pic taken by Shan Shan, tis time i am one of the models, but i look wierd. hehe.

Oh yar, todae i had photography UT.
I totally screw it up. I dunno how to do lar, got 6p oso no use, haiz =(
Dun wish to tok abt it, its already over.

Ate at LJS todae wif Nana, Yew Kee and her sis.
Super funny lar! We have tis FLYING disease! LOL.
Update more next time..

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-12T22:04:00.005+08:00

No mood to blog todae.

Having splitting headache and keep sneezing away right now. can u be by my side?
It must be the virus spread frm YK. haha!!

Random pics during YK bdae celebration,

Thats about it. Update more next time.

Now wanna go rest, tml stil got UT =(

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-11T22:32:00.007+08:00

Its mother's dae.

Happy Mother day to my beloved Mummmy!!

Thanks for being there for me all the time.

I LoVe u mummy!!

*We bought mummy a durian D24 cake. sadly forget to take pic. =(

Todae had to go to my uncle's house; open house. The angels in my house made some malay kuih to bring over. I oso got help leh, so hardworking of me. hehe =D

This is how the kuih look like, yummy yummy.

Upon going there, i had to dress the "decent" way. My father's side is kindda conservative.

Mummy n me.. =D

After going to my uncle house, we went home. Change clothes!!!

Sis n Me... ( ready to go shopping! haha)

We then move on to go shopping at Compass point. Went to somewhere near cos tml me n my sis got exam. sian!! We then went to banquet for dinner and home sweet home.

Now must study for UT. I haf 3 UTs in this week. DIE!!

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-10T20:39:00.003+08:00

Your smile, your touch, your kiss,
and your wonderful words. YOU

Today is the day that i will forget about your smile,
your touch, your kiss, your wonderful words.
today is the day that i will get over you

Okay,
so it might not be TODAY, or tommorrow.
but one day i will get over you.
SOMEDAY..

"Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up." James Baldwin
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-09T21:06:00.002+08:00

Todae there's nothing much to blog about.
Just that lesson was quite fun, we had to design a set of clothes with reference to ;
“Something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue.”
interesting huh? My team end product was quite good (i think) hehe!
3rd meeting, we just had to justify why we design it that way. so it was quite slacking. End class super early lar, ard 2.48pm we were already dismissed.
Waited for YK til 4pm den Home Sweet Home. Anw, saw my ex-eyecandy in the bus. hahahaha =D

Worries = Act 3 haven reply my mail (How to start PP liddat?)
Urgent Mission = Shopping tml for MOther day gift (handbag?)

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-08T09:04:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YewKee!!!
We bought cake for her and celebrate her bday during 2nd breakout.. i bought gift for her as well, hope she like it.. pics will be updated soon.

Oh well, lesson today was so YUCKS! It was DMA, what can u expect.
I hate DMA - I DUN UNDERSTAND! i mean like its using terms like so BIG/WIERD/SCARY/UNKNOWN which i noe nuts abt it.
I so gonna screw up my DMA UT. haiz.
Presentation; i was like dumb, i say nothing. Faci ask lot of ques, I think he noe i am clueless, keep looking at my direction.
*If he give me C , i gg to pon next week. LOL!
Year 2 is so torturous/tiring/stressful, can i go back to year 1? pls pls..

I am tired,
I had enuf,
I felt so useless,
I felt like giving up.
I wish i could just go off,
I wish i could dissapear into thin air,
I wish you were by my side,
Comforting me or just stand by me....
PS: Very sorry to YK for the black face i show to you, i was just not in the mood.

Some random pics i found online;

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-07T22:44:00.002+08:00

Its wed. like so sian..most of my frens are at home sleeping lar.. but sadly, i had to go to sch. i was basically dragging myself to sch. haiz.
Oh well, sch went as per normal, nothing special, just that i really have the feeling that the faci dun like me, keep asking me ques sia, and his ques are like so dumb lar! anyway who cares, i dun really like him anyway. hehe =D

After sch,went to haf dinner wif ma fren and shop for gifts. Lots of gifts to buy this month. I am like so broke lar! LOL.
8 May - YewKee bday
11 May - Mother day
21 May - Younger bro bday
25 May - Linz bday

Nothing much to blog today. having DMA tml. die die. SAVE ME!!
"Friendship is the beginning of love; love is the beginning of life."
LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-06T22:12:00.006+08:00

Start the day with something so DUMB!! i forgot my class!! like WTH.. had to call my classmate and ask her. haiz.. Bad starting for the BAd day!!
Today was photography = TAKE PICS (quite slacking).
This is wat i took todae, our theme is LEGS. interesting huh? did some edittings on the light exposure. nice? comments?
My own opinion: PLAIN! (but my classmates and faci kindda like it, so wierd lar!)

Oh yar, a piece of good news to share wif u guys. My pp scope is accepted! i can like start on the 2000 word report. YEAH!!

**Why must it happen to me?
Can i act as if i noe nothing?
Why do i feel hurt after knowing about it?
Its impossible anyway.
She suit him better.
She is prettier.
I am not gg to waste my time on him animore.
I am just going to be me; the REAL me!

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-05T21:37:00.002+08:00

Oh well, its monday..sian sian :X
Lesson as per normal, having history of arts module, so wat can u expect.. FACTS, RESEARCHING & READING.... like so eeeeeeeeeeeee!

Btw, i am like super duper worried on my Project Sope. I submitted like last week, 30/4 and till now no response. Duno wat they wan sia.. Some of ma fren can start on the 2ooo word report, like so good lar. envy them sia...

Oh yar, UT! i was like so scared lar, i din noe wat to expect. MCQ? SAQ? It was my 1st UT for yr 2 so abit kancong. hahax.
I tot it was qute okay but due to not having enough time, i din finish doing the last ques.
** haf to improve on my time management skills.

Hence due to UT, went home quite late. The interchange was kind of pack, especially the 161 queue. sian diao.
Saw quite a number of people and that include the sicko!! I repeat the SICKO!!like so yucks!! Me n yk din even wanna board the same bus as him, we rather wait for the next one. He is really a sicko, he can really like stare at u from top to bottom. And when you are trying to get some sleep, u can sense that he is looking at you. how to slp liddat?! arghhh!!! I seriously think he is interested in YK, i am like the victim! lol =D

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-03T20:44:00.003+08:00

This mail was forwarded to me. Found it very meaningful, just wanna share wif u guys.

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?

Saying something and wishing you hadn't?,

Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.

Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could
have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone, they would never be there?
*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever, and you couldn't have them?

Do you cherish me?
Do you noe how i feel abt you?
Cherish people around you, dun take them for granted =p
PS: Still waiting for u to realise my existance...

LOVES - Sakinah =D

2008-05-02T20:39:00.003+08:00

It has been 4 weeks since sch reopen. Seriously, i have no idea why, but going sch nowadays have been so difficult for me. I always had no mood and feel so tired to go to class. I have no motivation to go school at all! Not very close with my classmates unlike in year 1. haiz.
**Hope situation will turn better as day pass. Wishing for e best. =D

Let me update u guys on my grades; its very bad compared to YR 1
History of the Arts = D, B, B
Photography = B, B, C
Creative Concepts = C, B, B
Digital Media Arts = C, X, B
Art Critism & Analysis = C, C, B

Oh well, sch aside. i watch the Dance of the Dragon. The one Fann Wong got act. Initially i tot it was nice so i went to watch. BUT, i dun really fancy it. The show is kindda slow, those that are tired sure can fall asleep der. hahax. i rate it 2 stars onli.

PS: Feeling so guilty; i am sorry!! i wun repeat it again =(

LOVES - Sakinah =D

LaBoUr Dae..

2008-05-01T22:29:00.004+08:00

HeLLooooOO peeps!
Its public holidae todae = NO SCH!! yea!
I really enjoyed myself todae. hehe
Slept late the dae before and had a good sleep. Woke up around 10am.
Went out wif 4 angels of my family (me, sis, sis-in-law & mum) to meet up with my aunties/uncles as well as my cousins for BRUNCH. I ate Chicken Chop Spaghetti, it was super nice!! Love it!!

After that we went home and go out again to Compass Point to shop. My mum din wanna drive so had to take bus, sadded =(
We shop like crazy, got SALE! hahax. We bought cosmetic products, skin products and some clothes. I enjoy it, i LOVE shopping! hehe. Oh yar, i caught an eye on a bag, $98, SUPER nice!! wanna save money.

Then we go Starbucks to CHILL! I drank Chocolate ice blend. The service was slow lar, we din get our drink but others who ordered after us get their drink first. WTH! My Sis was like so pissed, the manager kindda noticed, he approached us and apologised, den give us 2 free drink voucher. hahax. Lucky he did that, if nt, i would nt patron starbucks animore. LOL!

After that we finally headed home. Dead beat but overall a GREAT DAY.

Tml still got sch, sian :x

LOVES - Sakinah =D

HoW iT sTaRtEd?

2008-05-01T00:02:00.006+08:00

HeLLoooOOOo peeps!!

Know wad?! I create my own blog! WTH!

I had no idea why, guess it was due to today's lesson, kena influence ler..

I had Art critic module todae. Task: Create a blog and post on a contemporary song.

This is how my team's blog look like; sjslifestory.blogspot.com

not bad huh? hahaz =D

So, ya that was how i started my blog, heeeee.I kindda really wonder how long i can stay to the habit of blogging. LOL! Oh well, todae's lesson abit slack so was able to settle my PP stuff and submitted it online ler.Oh god! i wish it will be accepted.

**Oh yar, recently i went to watch horror movie; Hansel & Gretel. but sadly, not scary!I din even shout, however its still a nice show, male lead also quite cute. hahax. Go n watch!

Update more next time

Loves - Sakinah =D